Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Why do people hate me?

I have many times wondered "Do people Hate me?" Recently one of my (ex)friend implicitly answered: YES. So, now I am wondering "Why do people hate me?"

I am sure nobody is even gonna read this bcoz if they do so then my theory holds invalid. But warning to all those who have by mistake entered this blog plz do not. You might be disgusted much before you reach the end.

People hate me simply because I am hateable. Why? Well I guess that is a million dollar question one needs to answer...

May be I am selfish!
I agree that I am selfish. But who isnt? Every body is selfish in one way or other. Then why only me. As one my (ex)friend had said "RP, you are too self-centered." Is this a reason for people to hate me. What troubles me is that I am actually not able to feel that I am selfish. I dont claim a selfless either but definitely not selfish. But people around me feel so. Why? And what have I done to them that they feel that I am selfish? No idea!

May be I am a bore!
Possible. But, people around me dont seem to show ne facial reaction. Actually, ppl do write/talk nice things about my sense of humour. I am claimed to have a good sense of humour, to which I dont disagree. So, if people find me bore then may be I am really one hell of a bore.

May be I am a psycho!
This is one hell of a possibility. I do agree to this one. Many times I find myself behaving like one. But still my definition of psycho is way beyond what I do. But what if people around me dont feel so? This is a seriously dangerous situation. A Psycho not knowing he is really one. Wow! Interesting situation....

May be I am a cheap!
People often tell me to look normal. They find me staring often. They find me giving vicious looks. They find me behaving cheaply. A cheap, it seems. Well, I am not sure I am cheap. But, yep I agree that I indeed stare, sometimes. But, what else can I do if the gal out there is exposing her assets. I am no saint. And I cannot control my natural reaction.

So, with these limited reasons I am confused. Bcoz all these reasons are the ones that make what I am. And these are the same reasons why others hate me. So, does this mean..... I am by default hateable!!! So nice to hear.... So encouraging....

No wonder I lose friends....